Emptied

Attempting to write a blog after more than a year. A year that has been filled with severe health issues; from a near death stent in ICU, over 120 days in the hospital, and the daily struggle to breathe and have enough energy to move around.

I am emptied. Physically, mentally and yes, spiritually. Emptied of emotion, strength and fortitude.

I am emptied. Often times, emptied of thought, creativity, and desire.

I am in constant pain. And I constantly struggle for my next breath.

What I pray I will never be emptied of is hope. Not an earthly hope, one of a, “I hope this meeting goes well”, or “I hope I get a _________ for Christmas”, but a hope that is secured and anchored in Christ.

A heavenly hope. A hope that is anchored in God’s word, that doesn’t yield a “hope so”, but is bound to a “know so”.

Life is a struggle, and it is extremely difficult right now.

Perhaps being emptied is a good place to start.

It is when we are emptied that we can be filled.

Paul tied the two together this way.

“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.”

Romans 15:13 ESV

6 thoughts on “Emptied

  1. David, When you are poured out, you can be sure that God is crafting details into you that he will be giving you to help you understand who HE is.  He shares your struggle and HE holds your faith. You can’t drop it and lose it.   I too went through the health crisis for 10 years wondering if I would be useful again, struggling for the next day—but really hoping it wouldn’t come—and that is a sweet spot so few have experienced. It forces us to give ourselves up and to be more completely marked ‘His’ child.  I wouldn’t trade it for anything now, but it was SO difficult. I’ll be praying for your strength to return stronger so that everything can be easier.  Wanda

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  2. Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother in Christ and ask for a touch once again for renewed strength and hope. We have seen your hand in his life and how he has used his talents for your honor and glory. We have seen your miracles performed in his health. Father we plead for a touch on his health, for peace that passes understanding, for relief from pain and that each breath will be a praise of your mighty touch. We ask for his sruggle to breathe to ease with each moment. We praise you Lord for all you are doing and will do. We lift his family up to you also. We ask in the name above all names, Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

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  3. Good morning! So excited to see your post this morning. I have missed them and you. I am constantly reminded that God is God and we are who we are – unable to fully understand or grasp His holy plan and design. Throughout your coma, other than my prayers for your healing and Sandy’s stamina and strength, I was praying the angels would be singing new melodies in your ear. Perhaps “Emptied” will be a new writing endeavor? I see “empty” all around me in every realm. It is rare that I see someone who is full of faith and hope in the midst of their empty circumstances of life. You and Sandy are true ministers of the gospel and examples of His hope in the storm of daily struggles. You keep it both real and holy. Thank you, thank you for your example. Praying for you, standing in humble awe, and love you both.

    Lori L. Luce
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    • Lori,

      So good to hear from you! Thank you for your insights and your comments.

      It has definitely been very arduous road for Sandy and me lately. We both know that God is in absolute and sovereign control of the situation, but that doesn’t make it less difficult.

      We have seen miracles along the way and that has bolstered our faith. Of course the doctors keep reminding me that the fact I walked out of the hospital is no small miracle! We are both grateful for what God has done and continues to do.

      We love you and appreciate you!

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