Emptied

Attempting to write a blog after more than a year. A year that has been filled with severe health issues; from a near death stent in ICU, over 120 days in the hospital, and the daily struggle to breathe and have enough energy to move around.

I am emptied. Physically, mentally and yes, spiritually. Emptied of emotion, strength and fortitude.

I am emptied. Often times, emptied of thought, creativity, and desire.

I am in constant pain. And I constantly struggle for my next breath.

What I pray I will never be emptied of is hope. Not an earthly hope, one of a, “I hope this meeting goes well”, or “I hope I get a _________ for Christmas”, but a hope that is secured and anchored in Christ.

A heavenly hope. A hope that is anchored in God’s word, that doesn’t yield a “hope so”, but is bound to a “know so”.

Life is a struggle, and it is extremely difficult right now.

Perhaps being emptied is a good place to start.

It is when we are emptied that we can be filled.

Paul tied the two together this way.

“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.”

Romans 15:13 ESV

The Forgotten Part of Forgiveness

Let’s face it, it is NOT easy to forgive someone who has hurt you deeply. There are emotional scars, mental scars and yes, even physical scars at times. It affects you and those around you who love you and are close to you. It’s been said that time heals a lot of things and to a degree that is true, but in my experience, a deep, deep hurt is never completely erased in your heart or mind.

I experienced a deep hurt several years ago and I can attest to the fact that the deep hurts in life never completely go away. However, lately I have been convicted, or more like beat over head, that I am the reason why some of these deep hurts haven’t completely gone away. I have not forgiven those who have hurt me or sought forgiveness from those that I have hurt.

It’s time I change that.

I heard a quote the other day, and while it wasn’t directly related to the subject of forgiveness, it was exactly what I needed to hear to move toward seeking forgiveness from the ones that I have hurt and forgiving those who have hurt me.

The quote was this, “Don’t live a life of what ifinstead live a life of why not?” So immediately I realized that I don’t ever want to have to say what if I had forgiven so and so, or what if I had sought forgiveness from someone I had hurt. So starting now, I’m asking myself why not? Why not forgive? Why not move on?

It’s the why not question that I feel IS the forgotten part of forgiveness. Forgotten in the sense that the longer we don’t forgive someone, or seek forgiveness, the more likely it is we’ll never ask ourselves why not?

Have I followed through, not yet? Do I plan to? Absolutely! And soon! The Bible says in Ephesians 4:26-27 “In your anger do not sin”: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold.”

If you need to forgive someone, or ask for forgiveness, do it now! Don’t wait! Ask yourself, why not?

Well, let’s just say there have already been a LOT of sunsets in my life, and I don’t intend to let that continue. No more, what if it’s time for why not?,