Attempting to write a blog after more than a year. A year that has been filled with severe health issues; from a near death stent in ICU, over 120 days in the hospital, and the daily struggle to breathe and have enough energy to move around.
I am emptied. Physically, mentally and yes, spiritually. Emptied of emotion, strength and fortitude.
I am emptied. Often times, emptied of thought, creativity, and desire.
I am in constant pain. And I constantly struggle for my next breath.
What I pray I will never be emptied of is hope. Not an earthly hope, one of a, “I hope this meeting goes well”, or “I hope I get a _________ for Christmas”, but a hope that is secured and anchored in Christ.
A heavenly hope. A hope that is anchored in God’s word, that doesn’t yield a “hope so”, but is bound to a “know so”.
Life is a struggle, and it is extremely difficult right now.
Perhaps being emptied is a good place to start.
It is when we are emptied that we can be filled.
Paul tied the two together this way.
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.”
Romans 15:13 ESV
It has been quite a while since I’ve given a health update, so here it goes.
On Monday, April 16 I traveled to Duke for a Clinic visit, which included a chest X-ray, labs, Pulmonary Function Tests and a visit with the doctor. I am grateful to announce that all is well after almost 4 years!
My pulmonary function was up 8%, which up is always a great thing! Labs were normal, at least something about me is right now! And the X-ray was clear!
We continue to be grateful for the way the Lord has taken care of us through all of this journey and yes, it continues to be a journey with challenges both big and small. But I’ve been reminded in the last several weeks of this passage which pretty well sums up all God can do!
20 “Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.” (Ephesians 3:20-21 ESV)
I realize this verse is not just speaking of physical things but of the supernatural and spiritual as well, but what a promise to know that God’s power is continually at work within those who believe in Him and call on His name! And the great news too is that it goes on generation after generation in fact, forever! And forever is a pretty long time!
So yes, I do take a deep breath, and breathe a silent prayer of gratitude for all He has done in my life! And boy am I thankful I can!